Hello, dolls! Hello, weekend!! <3 It’s an exciting Friday because I get to announce the winner of my April giveaway. I am so happy with the number of entries I received which makes me more inspired to host more giveaways in the future. It’s nice to be connected to more Moms here in Baltimore because of it! Speaking of Mom, Mother’s Day is right around the corner and I’ve been wondering if I will be celebrating it with two babies in my arms or anxious if my water will break any minute.
I am currently 36 weeks pregnant and surprisingly, I am 80% done preparing everything for baby girl! Her nursery is looking great, I did 3 loads of wash (and just 1 more batch to go), and our supplies are stocked — enough to last until the end of the year if I may say! So am I ready? Maybe…
I had a dream about baby girl last night and it made me even more excited to meet her. I remember with Little A, I was so scared because I had no idea what giving birth feels like. Now that I do, I know that whatever pain I will feel, I will get through it and in a month (hopefully less) it will subside.
This is the first time I have spent a lot of time at home since Little A was less than 3 months old. I sometimes feel like I am a full-time working Mom and a part-time Mom because I don’t get to do a lot of “Mom” things at home. Our routine has revolved around A and I’s schedule for the past 3 years that as much as I LOVE going on adventures every weekend, I also wish I have an extra day to spend with Little A at home. Just the two of us discovering things together.
For the past two weeks, I have been able to spend more time at home with him. There are so many positive things this pregnancy has brought our growing family, one of which is my desire to slow down at work (which honestly is still a work in progress but hey! I am here…). Anyway, my Mom heart has never been this full. We have our “little routine” now and I am happy to run around the house, do chores all day, attend to little A, and wait for my husband to come home.
My sister’s role in little A’s life is big. She has been my “constant” even before he was born up until now even if we’re a gazillion miles away. She went with me to most of my prenatal check-ups and was the first person to run into my hospital room when little A was born. It feels weird to not have her around now. If I am being honest, it makes me feel pretty incomplete.
It makes me sad whenever my Dad has to leave to go back to the Philippines especially now that little A is understanding things more.They have this connection that I love and I want baby girl to share that with him too. He was such a great help when I gave birth to little A! I think one of the reasons why I am trying to prepare as much as I can is because I know I won’t have him around next month.
Am I ready to have someone in between A and I in bed again? I don’t care what other Mom shamers say but this was the position that worked for us. Little A in the middle, not in a bassinet. We did have a pack and play in our room for more than a month until it became a giant accessory in our room that is only being used for an hour two. Before little A turned 3 months old, he was able to sleep in his crib which only required us to get him out when he wakes up in the middle of the night to feed. By that time, A and I are just both exhausted because we only have 4 hours left of sleep until we both have to go to work. So yeah, there’s my 4 hours of sleeping time with both of my boys…and I loved it.
A and I are going to be parents of two soon. I know there will be a lot of pressure and stress ahead of us, and it could get really scary. I am fortunate that he is very helpful so I know I have nothing to worry about when it comes to keeping my sanity (let’s just hope he doesn’t lose his lol).
Am I ready for the sleepless nights? When should I start thinking about work?
Am I ready to take care of two kids? Will I cope with postpartum better this time?
Am I ready?
I have a lot of questions right now but if I will let my heart and my body speak, I know I am ready.
Ready to be happier, to give more love, and to meet the beautiful girl growing inside of me.
Now, for the fun part! The winner of my giveaway…
I wish I could send a Swag Bag to everyone who joined!
CONGRATULATIONS, AMY!!! <3