May 2013: A roundup of randomness
I know… I KNOW, I haven’t been fair to this blog, especially to you readers. I have failed to deliver and make this page as exciting as it was. But despite of my absence, I am really grateful of everyone who has been visiting my blog. My daily stats never went down to zero and I have gained a few dolls on my followers list. So thaaaaank you everyone! <3 🙂
Anyway, I have been contemplating about life deeply for the past few days. The girls and I spent a lovely sleepover this past weekend and it has opened my heart into expressing the thoughts and feelings that I have kept inside, towards my life here in Manila.
It is disappointing to feel like a tourist when I step out of our home. To choose to be on the other side of the world than to be here. I have been very bold when it comes to my family and how they affect my choices in life. But one thing that gets into me is how the people that doesn’t know anything can say so much just for the sake of…speaking. It disturbs me how someone can just make my life his/her business, when they haven’t done anything but to be a professional stalker. My life was an open book before, it’s like a portfolio for some, just waiting to be turned and exposed. God knows how devastated I was and how I struggled just to be who I am now… happy, contented, blessed, loved, and existing.
Existing, yes. I remember when I was still in college, our Logic Professor talked about “life”, he mentioned that “to live is to exist”, and that thought is stuck on my head ever since. He said, you make yourself exist by living, by doing things that will make you live, and by doing things,that’s when you exist. A few years after, I realized that I should try to exist and live to have my own identity in this world. So I prayed and told Him, I want to feel good about myself,and be great at something. It took me 2 years to be blessed with such…and I am telling you, it was worth the wait.
So yeah, it still breaks my heart every time I think about my decisions in life. But see, God blessed me with something big and we all know how sacrifices work in our lives. Nothing great comes easy. It’s sad that the thing that made me feel great is at the other side of the world. In just a span of 1 year, I was able to learn a lot and hear the most motivating and flattering compliments from people who are highly-skilled, Top Chefs if I must say. I never thought that I can be that person, and it’s such a shame how I didn’t feel the same appreciation when I got back (aside from my family). Anyway, in a few months I will do what I love the most again and feel great. And be able to make my family proud (again and again and again) and be mum about it (again). “Let them wonder why you’re smiling” , as they say.
This welcomed me earlier 🙁 I can’t believe that the browser that I have been using for the past 2 years (I think) is retiring!!! I spent almost half an hour transferring my bookmarks and jotting down my saved passwords. #hassle
WEEK 1: Finally
First official week highlight: A trip to the salon.
It has been 15 months since I last had my hair cut and treated. I had the driest hair in Manila!! I felt guilty after seeing almost 4 inches of hair on the floor 🙁 All for the love of…beauty! Haha 🙂
Week 2 highlight: T Love
Met up with my college friends, Caloy and LA! <3 🙂
I forgot small servings here in Manila are…and how overpriced they are in unworthy restaurants! I don’t even know how to start with the VERY VERY VERY small shrimp that was served in my brother’s Alfredo pasta 🙁
Week 3: Vanity and Family
Was craving pizza so I asked my family if we can go to Uncle Cheffy’s for some yummy panizza! <3 Sooooooo goood!
Week 4: CC is for Chubby Cheeks!
My second Chanel lippy! Happiness! <3 🙂
Fattening dinner in Sambokojin. We’ve been going to buffets like crazy lately and my bodyis not entirely happy about it. My baby brother is not a baby anymore, look how big he is! He makes me loook like a midget! 😛
R <3 xx